Upset

I didn't post a blog yesterday because I was too upset. I've never had a good relationship with my mom. A good day is when we don't argue. Yesterday we had a clog in our pipes which turned out to be the cause of tree roots, but my mom yelled at me blaming me because I guessed there were other stuff in the pipes and she assumed it came from me because, well, it's always my fault. Normally I just let her yell and I go about my way but when I was in the garage I overheard her talking to my dad about me and I didn't catch everything she said, all I know is that she said some incredibly rude and hurtful things about me. Does she even understand that the things that come out of her mouth are hurtful? Does she get that even though I don't show my emotions it still pains me to the core? This isn't the first time either. When I was in my teens she used to call me "useless", "worthless" but still to this day the most hurtful thing she has ever called me is "stupid". By far that is the most painful thing ever said to me and it still makes me cry everytime I think about it.

Don't get me wrong my mom is not "abusive" she doesn't do this on a daily basis and I know she loves me but when she gets angry it just comes out. I dunno sometimes I feel like I should talk to her about it but for the most part I feel like it wouldn't help all that much.

Anyhoo here's my random video of the day and I included an extra since I didn't do yesterday...

Back at work!

Finally my days of boredom are gone. I went back to work today and though I was happy to see my friends again the nightmare I saw in my area was unbearable I thought I was about to cry. It was horrible it felt like nothing got done while I was gone but that's ok because I managed to work through it all and I was able to prove to my boss that I AM the best at what I do... Damn straight...

Well it's late now and I have to get up early tomorrow so here's a clip of one of my favorite friends episodes of all time... The One Where Everybody Finds Out

Sunday Boredom

I'm bored... I'm cleaning my house right now listening to The Planet podcast (Season 1 ep 1 commentary) and I'm excited because i get to go back to work tomorrow! I've been on vacation for the past week and the entire time I've been missing my friends there wondering how my area of the store looked. I am the only one with my position in the whole store so there was no one there to officially cover me... So I'm just afraid that it's all gonna look like shit.

Oh well it beats being at home bored out of my mind with nothing to do. I do get to go out of town this weekend I'm going to Reno to visit my family and check out Hot August Nights. For those who don't know Hot August Nights is when people from all over the place gather and show off all of their vintage cars its awesome and a great time. I can't wait to go!

The First Blog

Ok I've been posting so many blogs lately on myspace that I figured I might as well start my own blog. I was wondering what I should title it when I looked at a survey that asked for the first word that came to my mind and I thought... random... I'm a very random person I'll think of something one minute and run off on a complete tangent another minute.

I'm a big daydreamer I daydream all the time especially at work. I don't know what it is, maybe it's the fact that I work alone for the most part but I'll be working on something and fall into a complete daze and I'll think of something that I might wanna eat or maybe I'll think of someone I hadn't talked to in a long time... I dunno that's just me.

Well I thought I'd start this off with one of my favorite videos ever. It's hella funny and it never stops being funny...